Monday, September 29, 2008
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updating...
Am I a FAILURE???
I think I'm a FAILURE...
I don't know what is love about.
I don't know what should I give to a girl.
I don't know how to care for girl.
I don't how to depend on myself.
I don't know what girl needs.
I don't know what am I thinking.
I don't know why I'm loved by someone.
I don't know why I quarrel with her every time when we sms.
I don't know why is she angry with me.
I don't know why I'm annoying.
I don't know that I'm irritating to her.
I don't know that I stole her freedom.
I don't know that I'm giving her stress.
I don't know that when she need care.
I don't know what makes her upset.
I don't know what makes her happy.
I don't know anything about her now.
I don't know what should I do now.
I feel that we are distanced.
And the distanced is what we know about each other.
The distance we are having is not patchable.
I don't know what she's thinking.
I don't know how to find back the fun time we had before.
I don't know how to gain back the trust anymore.
She had lost trust in me forever.
I don't know what to do.
There's no happy ending for us I think.
We love each other but also not.
I love her.
She love me.
But sometimes it isn't like this.
We are close but yet far.
We are together but yet apart.
She knows me, I don't know her.
Everything about her life I just don't know.
Am I deserve to love her?
I don't know.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
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Updating.It had been a long time not updating the blog le.Haix, life is so difficult de. Why? Why everything need money?Can't people live without money? The thing we using having is from the Earth, why do we have to pay money for the resources?Can't we have a peaceful life?Now school sucks. I shouldn't have gone back to Sec5. I regretted now. I don't want to live anymore. I don't want the stress keep pressing on me. I just don't understand why so many people wanting the stress to push them to work hard. Can't we work without stress, everything ake a slower pace?Do we need the stress? Can't we make a difference?My life sucks. I hate my life now.I'm L Lawliet. The EMO guy but not as smart as in the cartoon.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
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I feel like dying now
Nobody caring about me, nobody love me anymore.
So wad if I have a girlfriend?
Someone Caring about me or not? Someone love me or not?
This world only got myself to accompany me.
No one else is with me.
Death is arriving to me. I can see the dark side, the bright side and a totally empty side. Which path should I take? Anyone leading me?
My mind is full of her, the her I love, I care, I worry.
But what is she thinking about? I tried to dig into her mind but somehow I was blocked from going inside.
Cutting myself now. I should have died earlier. Many times I experienced almost hit by cars when cycling but gotten away from it.
Will she understand me?
What will be her answer?
Let's break up?
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
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Given her a promise ：“给林馨玲老婆的约定，我不会不要你的，那是因为我爱你啊。我不会离开你的。。。”这次的约定我不会反悔了，因为不想让你受伤了。
Sunday, January 20, 2008
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这个世界有永远不变的爱吗？有些人相信有，有些呢却不相信会有这么一件事。我相信有，因为爱情是靠自己掌控的，没有人能够破坏。要是爱情在彼此之间有些破坏的话，就代表这段感情不会永久。Love is all about trust between couple. If the trust to each other is not enough, that mean the love between them is over. When you love someone, you got to trust the person you love, once you find that you don't trust that person must as well break up faster instead in the end you will be sad.Trust is important, once trustness is off, nobody will believe on each other again and got to break up.Trust someone you love. Don't trust someone who don't love you, because you yourself will be hurt more.Don't ever mistrust the one you love. That will give you an ending of sadness and unhappiness.
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Today went back to school to listen to a stupid session. Waste my time only.From Sec1 till now listening to the same topic over and over again.We know what to do le, they still want to repeat and repeat again. Must as well record down and let us see better, don't need to waste our time there.After the session, then go home, bath le, then fall asleep.Deardear sms me, then I wake up to meet her, accompany her to compasspoint to buy lunch, then send her home after that.Reach home le, Kian called me to go out, I said don't want, then after awhile Boon Seng call then I find it boring staying at home so decided to go out, because whole family go out le left me at home so go out with friends le lo.Go to the usual place we go, that is Plaza Singapura, go there want to watch movie de but all the movie we want to watch all left only with the most front seat le, so we don't want it. Then we spend our time in arcade again.Spent $20+ at arcade.We invest the money at the basketball machine. Teamed up with Boon Seng, we get 569 point, highest score ever.Then once again got to rush for last train, but luckily got on train just on time.Got home le call my beloved Deardear, feel so bad lo, I go out and have fun she at home sick and boring, asked her what happen to her she say don't know. Then heard her voice like sad sad de, ask her why she say nothing.She can't sleep again, but she want me to sleep first so I hang up the phone, don't whether she can sleep anot. So worry about her now, she didn't get enough sleep since school term started, no wonder she sick now.Somemore she now can't sleep, tomorrow still need to wake up at 0730hr to accompany her mum to Woodlands.Getting late liaoo. Just ate 4 panodol down. Need to rest liao cause got block nose, flu le.Bye
Friday, January 18, 2008
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Love her everyday, every moment, every hours, every mintues, every seconds.Love her everything no matter what.Just can't help loving her.爱情不分彼此，爱情拥有我对你的爱和你对我的爱。因为爱情里只有你和我。Loving you with no regrets, but only happiness and loving time.Our love till now never break, till now had already 2 years 9months.Very very loves her.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
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Today is an another of boring lessons.Secondary school life's boring.Why did I choose Sec5?Chosen Sec5 because of her. Keeping her accompany, and help her in her weak sudject.What I can say is “我愿意为她牺牲，就只是为了和她在一起。她可能不知道为什么我会有如此地为她牺牲。”Thinking of giving up now, but what I can do? No choice but to stay because of her.
